Truly Thankful

As we prepare for a day dedicated to giving thanks, I can't help but think of the sweet little faces who won't be celebrating with families. I think of those stuck in orphanages or worse. And I also think of those fighting to bring each and every one of them home to loving families. I remember last year well. I remember spending Christmas day sobbing, knowing that we were safe and sound as a family of 4 while our son waited in a bleak reality half way around the world. I wished he was home. I wished paperwork didn't take so long to gather. I wished I could just go board a plane and grab him. I wanted to hold him and hug him and show him he was loved. The tears poured out as I begged God to sustain him while he waited for us.

This year, our children are safe at home. But so many others wait. Thanksgiving, Christmas, and birthdays go by without these children knowing that they are different from any other day. I have been following sweet little Katie's journey home lately. An orphan no more, Katie was just welcomed into the the USA by the staff at CHOP. She landed in America to be scooped up and taken straight to the hospital. She fights for her life as a 9 year old weighing 11lbs (her highest weight ever now that she has been with her mommy and daddy). This is not an exaggeration. This is not a ploy to tug at your heart strings. This is reality for so many children. You can follow Katie's journey here.

I fear that too many people know the truth but have one of two reactions to the orphan crisis. The first reaction is paralyzation. How in the world with 147 million orphans out there do we begin to make an impact? The task is too great, so we sit. This is a job for someone else. The other response I fear is the "I should do something, but now is not a good time" response. We worry that we don't have a big enough house, we don't have enough money, we don't have enough time. We have enough problems of our own and we certainly cannot take on someone else's problems too. Please let me tell you that children without families and homes are not seeking perfection. If adoption took a perfect family we would have been out of the running. At the time we adopted, Gary traveled 75% of the time for work which left me as basically a single mom most days and nights, we did not have a large enough vehicle to accommodate even one more car seat, we had debt and certainly did not have the thousands of dollars that the adoption required, and we had NO EXPERIENCE with special needs. But when you realize the heart of God and you are willing to step out in obedient faith, something amazing happens. None of that stuff seems to matter. God provided the money we needed, God provided a vehicle to fit not one, but two more car seats, God provided a new job opportunity for Gary so he could be home more, and God put people in our lives to help guide us through everything that our kids need.

I am not claiming that everything is always easy (as you can read in many of my other blog posts), but is life ever easy? Are kids easy? No. But even though there are difficult moments, we are witness to little butterflies escaping their cocoons every day. 7 months ago we were told that Sasha was non-verbal. And poor Ana was oblivious to the fact that anyone was even talking to her. We honestly thought she was deaf. But here they are now.

This is without a perfect family. Without any therapy (no, I don't need a lecture on the importance of therapy. We are getting there). Without parents who have any special needs experience. This is what happens in a family. When the same face wakes with you in the morning, tucks you in at night, feeds you, clothes you, bathes you, and does their best to love you. That's all these kids are hoping for. Can you give them that? It would be wrong of me to tell you not to look at the challenges, so instead I would ask you to look at them in light of how big our God is. What would have happened if Katie's family waved the white flag, declared defeat and left her, deciding that her challenges were too overwhelming? You and I both know the answer.

You know, when we decided to commit to adopt Ana I was so worried what everyone would think. I worried that people would think we were somehow trying to earn a spot in heaven by taking on as much as we could. I worried that the chatter would start. We would be prematurely judged. I braced myself for the, "they have no idea what they are getting themselves into" talk. I feared close friends and family would worry that we couldn't handle it. But, I remember so clearly the day I told my mom. These were my words: "Mom, I know people are going to think we are crazy, but I don't want to miss whatever beautiful thing God has planned for us". And He did have a beautiful thing planned for us.

I am very thankful that we didn't show up at the orphanage to find 2 kids who we instantly attached to and who bonded with us. I am thankful that the love took time. I am thankful that they are ours and we are theirs. The real beauty of the adoption process comes in the hard parts. It comes in the moments of blind faith and grudging obedience. It comes without warning or much fanfare. It comes when your adopted child recognizes you as mom or dad. It comes when one day the child who didn't want to be touched at all turns, reaches for you and flawlessly says, "up," because she wants to be snuggled. These are the moments when you experience God in a tangible way. This is the beauty of adoption, and I am so thankful that God has counted us worthy.

So to those who wonder, "how do I begin to change this," the answer is one orphan at a time. Love one, advocate for one, bring one home. And to those who say, "not now," I will ask you WHEN? Tomorrow might not come. What if Katie's family waited? Start just by loving one. See the face, learn the name, pray for the child and his or her forever family. They are out there, and God knows who they are. 

Take time this holiday season to make a real difference. Because last year my kids were faces on an angel tree. This year, they are real angels under my tree. 

Here are some links to get you started:

Help the Sheffield family welcome Vinnie home.

Help Sophia find her way into the loving arms of her mommy, Megan.

Sponsor Velenz (or any other sweet child) on this year's Reece's Rainbow Angel Tree.